The Sparrow Of Lasting Happiness…

Happiness became more fully lit and alive for me this month of August 2020. I realised – and the penny finally dropped- that, just like I fight for, honor, and keep, ever vigilantly, My Inner Peace, I can do likewise with Happiness. So I decided to have that relationship: I decided to make & keep that commitment to Happiness. And as wise souls have observed, the moment I made that decision earlier this week, testy things immediately begun to turn up; like they came, in particular, to reclaim Happiness.

Then I remembered, and calmed myself, having learned- and am always open to learning from my experiences another commitment I have made some time ago- that those situations weren’t tests: weren’t the devil trying to wrangle back some kind of control. In making the Happiness decision and honoring the commitment, similar to lifting a stagnant rock and an whole hosts of insects running & cutting loose therefrom, so it was with those habitual things. So it was with those habitual ways of thinking, behaving, seeing, being, living & loving…I was seeing that more clearly in those moments; in my no longer wishing to entertain them.

I was seeing right through them and seeing how swiftly they turned up, threatening Lasting Happiness: to undermine and tarry it, especially Age-Old fear transfigured into anxiety, and PTSD anxiety transfigured into terror: always there, ready, to steal My Joy.. to steal My Portion of it…we all have our Portions.

Once upon a time I needed those thought and feeling patterns & conditions to survive and keep me psychologically alive…Once upon a time it was safer living small; safer keeping myself to myself; wise to safe-keep My Good and My Joy…

But all that I put behind me; all that I am actively putting behind me… moment to moment, and daily..

No matter what shows up in front of me threatening to make me jump out of my skin, I am going to allow the vulnerability that come with those human experiences. I going to allow vulnerability and seek out proper comfort & safety. And once calmed, I’m gonna choose Happiness, over & over & over. I am going to choose Happiness, Over-all.

Yes, I will have emotions about stuff, both positive and negative ones- just like the weather have all types of weather; I am going to have those and make a greater concerted effort to not “add to” my suffering. As Buddhists says, there is suffering that comes with living in the world, and then there is the (unnecessary) suffering we inadvertently add to that suffering; to our pain.

The Good News is, it is within our hands to lose that “suffer some more” add on

…When Christ said The Kingdom is at hand, She wasn’t lying…

All we have to more consistently do is move ourselves out of The Way and let Nature & Her Process take & run its course… And when She is done, get back on that Happiness Horse and let it take us wherever it would: Her Wherever Is, All-Ways-Good

Peace & Love In Flight,

Light…

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