The Sweet Taste Of Freedom..

It feels so good experiencing the Sweet Taste of Personal Freedom that comes from exercising the power of choice of how I will respond in all of my life situations.

It feels so good experiencing that Peace of Mind that comes from making up one’s mind to own one’s mind and not give it over to inside & outside malignant force.

It feels so good experiencing the Sweet Serenity of not being whisked off & away into the amygdala brain, which causes the loss of time, essentially those Preciously Sweet Moments of Now.

It feels so good, especially for the likes of me, to have freedom from worry, and from anxiety playing “worse case scenarios” over & over. My Mind is at her Happiest at this time in my life, inspite of the unprecedented presence of corona.

It feels so good to feel so good fervently Claiming “Feel So Good” moment to moment & daily. It feels so good to feel so good without terror riding up behind me and stealing my joy like it used to, once required as a matter of survival.

Damn! It just feels sooo blimming good!!

Peace & Love,

Light…

P.s. To get a front row seat of how I came to be more at Peace, in Love & in Joy in my healing & life journey thus far (it’s been a long time coming!), buy my book, Back to love…you will not be disappointed..

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Peace & Love,

Light..

Why

I had a dream last night
that I died and The Lord
asked me, why?
Why when I was alive I
wasn’t myself?

And all the excuses that had once
served me well, now didn’t mean a thing,
because in Truth? I never dared
go out on That limb,

to the place the Lord later shared, held
her most precious fruits-
a place where I never could lose.

I cried that night, deep, bitter tears of regret,
then tears of Joy when I arose, and realised
there was still time, yet.

And never again did I forget
to re-member myself-and respond
to The Call to Share and Express,
those God, Given, Talents.

November 2004

Peace & Love,

Light 💛

On My Kind Of Love..

Kahlil Gibran – 1883-1931

On Love…

Then said Almitra, Speak to us of Love.
     And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them. And with a great voice he said:
     When love beckons to you, follow him,
     Though his ways are hard and steep.
     And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
     Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
     And when he speaks to you believe in him,
     Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.

     For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
     Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
     So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
     Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself
     He threshes you to make your naked.
     He sifts you to free you from your husks.
     He grinds you to whiteness.
     He kneads you until you are pliant;
     And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God’s sacred feast.

     All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life’s heart.

     But if in your heart you would seek only love’s peace and love’s pleasure,
     Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love’s threshing-floor,
     Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
     Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
     Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
     For love is sufficient unto love.

     When you love you should not say, “God is in my heart,” but rather, “I am in the heart of God.”
     And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

     Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.
     But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
     To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
     To know the pain of too much tenderness.
     To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
     And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
     To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
     To rest at the noon hour and meditate love’s ecstasy;
     To return home at eventide with gratitude;
     And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

Peace & Love,

Light…

Black history for life…

Black history, like a pet, is not just for October, it’s for life, and more importantly, for the National Curriculum. One of the main purposes of History – Personal & Collective – is to look back to learn; to look back to Evolve, Progress & Grow…NOT TO glorify & justify atrocious inhumane decisions and violence. Not to mis-educate & perpetrate propaganda…And we wonder about the state of the world!? The state of our Personal & Collective…This is not rocket science, just simple mathematics.

More Power To The Truth and its Prevailing 🖤🔥🖤

Peace & Love,

Light 🔥

24 hours With Grace

Gracious Grace, I am finally Allowing to visit today.

I didn’t realise how perfectly Grace Knows,

The Way;

Grace Picked Me Up and swept me away

from all angst and pain; with the paradox being,

I had to Allow Original Pain in to Receive Her.

Grace Amaziness IS…

Yielding, though far from compromising; invisible, yet

Blindingly Present, Everywhere…

Yes, Grace has Great Gifts to Give, and I am, in this time,

Allowing myself to it;

In This Time, Yielding, Releasing, Fore Giving….

Getting out the way so Grace can reach me and show me

how Great Life Truly Is…in its ISness…

How Comforting Grace Is Also!

In Her Presence I want for nothing: NO-THING!

Her Love for Us is Unlimited and is filled with

Impeccable Miraculous-ness.

I plan to keep letting Her in, until

She Is More inside than out,

and I Come to Know what life In The Here

& The Now Is All about…

Peace & Love,

Light…💛

Outside The Spiritual Closest…

I AM A SPIRITUAL BEING TRYING TO HAVE A HUMAN EXPERIENCE AS BEST I CAN WITHIN THE CONFINES OF HUMAN LIFE; THOUGH IN SPIRITUAL REALITY I AM, BIGGER THAN ALL THAT

EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS ON THIS EARTHPLANE, DEEP DOWN I KNOW, DO & DOES PASS, SO I NEED NOT FREAK OUT TOO MUCH- IF AT ALL, AT EVERY INCONVIENCE, EVERY PAIN; EVERY CHALLENGE, ANY TURN…

FEELINGS & MENTAL STATES PASSES, AS DOES HAPPINESS; BUT JOY, LASTING HAPPINESS’S ELDER SISTER, IS EVERLASTING, ESPECIALLY WHEN I AM, AND WHEN I STAND, IN THE KNOWLEDGE OF MY BEING BIGGER THAN ALL THAT.

SO, THE WORD IS: LIFE IS NOW; PROTECT YOUR NOW…THE TIME IS NOW, AS NOW IS THE ONLY PLACE TO BE, TO BREATHE, TO LIVE, TO LOVE, TO DREAM : TO HAVE OUR BEING.

AS A SPIRIUAL BEING I AM RE-VISITING ALL THIS; RE-MEMBERING ALL THAT, AND KNOWING I HAVE THE CHOICE TO CHOOSE LASTING HAPPINESS, OR NOT…

CHOOSING HAPPINESS IS AN ACT OF COURAGE FOR HUMANS, JUST AS BEING WHO WE TRULY ARE UNFORTUNATELY IS AS WELL…

SO, HELLO, LET ME INTRODUCE YOU TO MY VERY BIG FRIEND…

A BEING WITHOUT BEGINNING, BEING WITHOUT END...

BIGGER THAN ALL THIS AND ALL THAT..

WAY ABOVE ALL ELSE..

PEACE & LOVE,

LIGHT..

This…

A.D.D

Earlier today I was listening to Elizabeth Lesser’s book, Marrow, and I just had to share something I read there that resonated with me. Before I do, just to share that every book I read-that I reach out to read and/or it finds me- comes when I am facing something that is challenging in my life that is calling me to further growth and self/understanding. I loved Elizabeth Lesser’s book Broken Open, which I read maybe 10 years , or so, ago. Her soul speaks to and resonates with mines in an effortless and easy way.

I chose this book, which I am going to share an excerpt from, during this time of death being so very much part of our lives and the world with the advent of Covid -19. In the midst of covid-19 and its sudden prevalence of high death rates, especially back in March and April, and having experienced the loss of loved ones losing loved ones, I felt the need to make peace, again, with death: with this twin that comes with human life, which we humans finds hard to accept and live with, let alone bare when it comes knocking. I very much wanted to find a way to quell the fear in the world and the fear in my everyday, so off I went searching for the right (now) book. Books have always been My Way: My Way to find A Way.

Okay, now to share the excerpt that Spoke to me today and Inspired me to share it here…

“It never ceases to amaze me how much we all suffer from ADD, not Attention Deficient Disorder. The ADD I am talking about is Authenticity Deficiency Disorder, a condition you will not find in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders because I made it up…

But still, it is real and like many disorders Authenticity Deficiency Disorder manifest along a spectrum…

Some of us have a mild case: we go through the day with a low grade embarrassment of being human, hesitant to show our true face with all its odd and magnificent irregularities; reluctant to look inside and do some house cleaning and get to the marrow of the self…

Others of us fall on the more serious end of the Authenticity Deficiency Disorder spectrum: our sense of inadequacy and shame is overwhelming and crippling. Serious Authenticity Deficiency Disorder can take the form of depression, anxiety, fear, isolation; it can hold us back from fully living; it can make intimacy impossible…

Most of us fall in the middle of the Authenticity Deficiency Disorder spectrum: sometimes pleased about who we are, sometimes ashamed. Sometimes clear about our paths in life; oftentimes befuddled and stuck…

In the privacy of our own nutty heads we imagine everyone else got the instruction book, but not us. Indeed, we suspect there may be something uniquely wrong with us, but we keep that insecurity to ourselves; we keep it secret…

And then we try to cover it up with all different sorts of facades and defenses that over a lifetime becomes habitual. We try to look the part of someone whose got it all together…

Depending on what we think the world wants from us, we try to sound cool, act strong, be smart. Or maybe we hide behind a macho mask, or a good girl persona. Maybe we act the good girl part when what is called for is a rebel; or maybe we act the rebel even though there is nothing to fight..

Meanwhile, back in the Marrow, our shining soul is what the world really wants…

…but we don’t believe that.

We believe the opposite: that if we look too deep or share too much our basic unacceptability would be found out…

So, we relate to each other on the surface because if we reveal too much- show our cards, we won’t be loved, or won’t be accepted , or won’t belong…

We’d be taken advantaged of, we’d be judged, and excluded…

But that is a supreme misunderstanding…”

And so Lesser goes on…

Similarly, I believe that this world and its inhabitants have a supreme case of Authenticity Deficiency Disorder…I also believe that death scares us so when we are not living an authentic life; when we are not being our authentic self. Death scares us so when we know deep inside that we are not living a life pleasing to ourselves & to our true potential. That is what we are here to do and be, not carbon copies, not what the world tells us is acceptable; not how the world pigeon box us. We are, and we have, Agency.

Isn’t that what deathbeds regrets are full of….? Life-Unlived.…woulda coulda shouldas…

As the lyrics of a song says (the name of which escapes me) Be yourself; everyone else is taken..

I had it too, and am recovering therefrom…Daring Greatly every single day to be me, simply…

Peace & Love,

Light…

P.s. Let Your Authentic Shine Bright…

The world, like never before (in our time), needs Your Light…

Needs Your Difference-Making..