Black history for life…

Black history, like a pet, is not just for October, it’s for life, and more importantly, for the National Curriculum. One of the main purposes of History – Personal & Collective – is to look back to learn; to look back to Evolve, Progress & Grow…NOT TO glorify & justify atrocious inhumane decisions and violence. Not to mis-educate & perpetrate propaganda…And we wonder about the state of the world!? The state of our Personal & Collective…This is not rocket science, just simple mathematics.

More Power To The Truth and its Prevailing 🖤🔥🖤

Peace & Love,

Light 🔥

24 hours With Grace

Gracious Grace, I am finally Allowing to visit today.

I didn’t realise how perfectly Grace Knows,

The Way;

Grace Picked Me Up and swept me away

from all angst and pain; with the paradox being,

I had to Allow Original Pain in to Receive Her.

Grace Amaziness IS…

Yielding, though far from compromising; invisible, yet

Blindingly Present, Everywhere…

Yes, Grace has Great Gifts to Give, and I am, in this time,

Allowing myself to it;

In This Time, Yielding, Releasing, Fore Giving….

Getting out the way so Grace can reach me and show me

how Great Life Truly Is…in its ISness…

How Comforting Grace Is Also!

In Her Presence I want for nothing: NO-THING!

Her Love for Us is Unlimited and is filled with

Impeccable Miraculous-ness.

I plan to keep letting Her in, until

She Is More inside than out,

and I Come to Know what life In The Here

& The Now Is All about…

Peace & Love,

Light…💛

Outside The Spiritual Closest…

I AM A SPIRITUAL BEING TRYING TO HAVE A HUMAN EXPERIENCE AS BEST I CAN WITHIN THE CONFINES OF HUMAN LIFE; THOUGH IN SPIRITUAL REALITY I AM, BIGGER THAN ALL THAT

EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS ON THIS EARTHPLANE, DEEP DOWN I KNOW, DO & DOES PASS, SO I NEED NOT FREAK OUT TOO MUCH- IF AT ALL, AT EVERY INCONVIENCE, EVERY PAIN; EVERY CHALLENGE, ANY TURN…

FEELINGS & MENTAL STATES PASSES, AS DOES HAPPINESS; BUT JOY, LASTING HAPPINESS’S ELDER SISTER, IS EVERLASTING, ESPECIALLY WHEN I AM, AND WHEN I STAND, IN THE KNOWLEDGE OF MY BEING BIGGER THAN ALL THAT.

SO, THE WORD IS: LIFE IS NOW; PROTECT YOUR NOW…THE TIME IS NOW, AS NOW IS THE ONLY PLACE TO BE, TO BREATHE, TO LIVE, TO LOVE, TO DREAM : TO HAVE OUR BEING.

AS A SPIRIUAL BEING I AM RE-VISITING ALL THIS; RE-MEMBERING ALL THAT, AND KNOWING I HAVE THE CHOICE TO CHOOSE LASTING HAPPINESS, OR NOT…

CHOOSING HAPPINESS IS AN ACT OF COURAGE FOR HUMANS, JUST AS BEING WHO WE TRULY ARE UNFORTUNATELY IS AS WELL…

SO, HELLO, LET ME INTRODUCE YOU TO MY VERY BIG FRIEND…

A BEING WITHOUT BEGINNING, BEING WITHOUT END...

BIGGER THAN ALL THIS AND ALL THAT..

WAY ABOVE ALL ELSE..

PEACE & LOVE,

LIGHT..

This…

A.D.D

Earlier today I was listening to Elizabeth Lesser’s book, Marrow, and I just had to share something I read there that resonated with me. Before I do, just to share that every book I read-that I reach out to read and/or it finds me- comes when I am facing something that is challenging in my life that is calling me to further growth and self/understanding. I loved Elizabeth Lesser’s book Broken Open, which I read maybe 10 years , or so, ago. Her soul speaks to and resonates with mines in an effortless and easy way.

I chose this book, which I am going to share an excerpt from, during this time of death being so very much part of our lives and the world with the advent of Covid -19. In the midst of covid-19 and its sudden prevalence of high death rates, especially back in March and April, and having experienced the loss of loved ones losing loved ones, I felt the need to make peace, again, with death: with this twin that comes with human life, which we humans finds hard to accept and live with, let alone bare when it comes knocking. I very much wanted to find a way to quell the fear in the world and the fear in my everyday, so off I went searching for the right (now) book. Books have always been My Way: My Way to find A Way.

Okay, now to share the excerpt that Spoke to me today and Inspired me to share it here…

“It never ceases to amaze me how much we all suffer from ADD, not Attention Deficient Disorder. The ADD I am talking about is Authenticity Deficiency Disorder, a condition you will not find in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders because I made it up…

But still, it is real and like many disorders Authenticity Deficiency Disorder manifest along a spectrum…

Some of us have a mild case: we go through the day with a low grade embarrassment of being human, hesitant to show our true face with all its odd and magnificent irregularities; reluctant to look inside and do some house cleaning and get to the marrow of the self…

Others of us fall on the more serious end of the Authenticity Deficiency Disorder spectrum: our sense of inadequacy and shame is overwhelming and crippling. Serious Authenticity Deficiency Disorder can take the form of depression, anxiety, fear, isolation; it can hold us back from fully living; it can make intimacy impossible…

Most of us fall in the middle of the Authenticity Deficiency Disorder spectrum: sometimes pleased about who we are, sometimes ashamed. Sometimes clear about our paths in life; oftentimes befuddled and stuck…

In the privacy of our own nutty heads we imagine everyone else got the instruction book, but not us. Indeed, we suspect there may be something uniquely wrong with us, but we keep that insecurity to ourselves; we keep it secret…

And then we try to cover it up with all different sorts of facades and defenses that over a lifetime becomes habitual. We try to look the part of someone whose got it all together…

Depending on what we think the world wants from us, we try to sound cool, act strong, be smart. Or maybe we hide behind a macho mask, or a good girl persona. Maybe we act the good girl part when what is called for is a rebel; or maybe we act the rebel even though there is nothing to fight..

Meanwhile, back in the Marrow, our shining soul is what the world really wants…

…but we don’t believe that.

We believe the opposite: that if we look too deep or share too much our basic unacceptability would be found out…

So, we relate to each other on the surface because if we reveal too much- show our cards, we won’t be loved, or won’t be accepted , or won’t belong…

We’d be taken advantaged of, we’d be judged, and excluded…

But that is a supreme misunderstanding…”

And so Lesser goes on…

Similarly, I believe that this world and its inhabitants have a supreme case of Authenticity Deficiency Disorder…I also believe that death scares us so when we are not living an authentic life; when we are not being our authentic self. Death scares us so when we know deep inside that we are not living a life pleasing to ourselves & to our true potential. That is what we are here to do and be, not carbon copies, not what the world tells us is acceptable; not how the world pigeon box us. We are, and we have, Agency.

Isn’t that what deathbeds regrets are full of….? Life-Unlived.…woulda coulda shouldas…

As the lyrics of a song says (the name of which escapes me) Be yourself; everyone else is taken..

I had it too, and am recovering therefrom…Daring Greatly every single day to be me, simply…

Peace & Love,

Light…

P.s. Let Your Authentic Shine Bright…

The world, like never before (in our time), needs Your Light…

Needs Your Difference-Making..

Self-love…

I am on my way to becoming a published author..my book Back to love, coming soon….I used to play this song on rewind at my father’s house in my childhood….My book is a testimony of my Journey getting back to self-love and wiping away the the key experiences that wrote over my inner-sense 💜💜💜💣

Here’s a song for you… The Greatest Love of All – 2015 GH Version by George Benson

Peace & Love,

Light..💛

The Soul In The Arena..

I am here Sunday afternoon, 4pm, June 28th 2020, watching Brenè Brown’s film on Netflix, “the call to courage.” I love what Brenè Brown has to say on the relationship between vulnerability and courage: most poignant, that there is strength in vulnerability. Her words are the right in-formation for me to be receiving at this time as I prepare to truly and completely go out on the “getting my book published”limb.

All during writing my book- and rewriting it, and re-editing it over these very many years, vulnerability has sat close besides me wondering, “what the fuck are you doing!? Are you really serious about getting this book published!?” 🤣

Last year, all the “nothing ever happens before the time” ducks were all in line when Sèan Patrick Parker, Founder & CEO of That Guy’s House (TGH) publishing company, made his appearance in my life, at opportune time. TGH is a publication company that exist in its purpose-drivenness, to bring transformational, difference- making, life stories into existence. ” The exact same purpose-driven passion as mine, on all the different levels. God/The universe/Love/Divine Intelligence/The Great Unseen Power That Be, most definitely had an hand in him and I coming together and teaming up. The key part I played, before, and toward then, was not giving up on this dream- in spite of all my fears, anxieties and insecurities. Instead working hard and dedicatedly at crafting & honing this passion & purpose of mine, whilst staying awake & alert to opportune time.

And now that dream, my book (and the others I have in the pipeline waiting), is set on becoming a reality. And being as close as it is to reality, vulnerability and high anxiety is running riot inside of me, afraid of backlash; afraid of the “happy-not critic” and his & hers inferiority-complexities . But watching Brenè Brown’s call to courage, especially when she quoted from Theodore Roosevelt’s 1910 address speech I share below, I also know that this moment has not happened by chance and ready or not, I am as ready as I will ever be to respond to The Call To Courage: to The Call To Dare Greatly…and you know what? I am so incredibly proud of myself and so thankful for this Journey that has given my life everlasting meaning and purpose; that has given me an internally- sourced Peace & Joy; that has enriched my life with milk and honey, the likes of which, in my childhood past, I could only day-dreamed about…I am guessing that any kind of dreaming was enough…and has become The Dream of dreams that keeps on giving…

So, I will allow the haters their hate-it’s theirs to keep. I will allow the critics their snigger. I will allow the cynic their cynicism. Tiny-hearted is as tiny- hearted does.

The only kind of people I should be giving My Time of day to when it comes to my creative expressions and occupying space in my preciously divine mind, are those on the road less traveled; are those in the arena daring to do their thing: Daring To Do The Thing Their Soul Has Called them to. Everybody has A Thing; many are Called, few listens, let alone Dares Greatly…

Man In The Arena

It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.

Theodore Roosevelt, 1910..

P.s. And here it is! My Labour of Sweat, Blood, Tears, Come to New & True Life🔥 https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1913479552/ref=cm_sw_r_u_apa_fabc_sErTFbJXVNQSC

https://backtolove.uk

Peace & Love🔥

Light 💛

Our Day In The Sun..

A quick shout out…

I think the Black Lives Matters Too, should be a slogan/statement left for this movement alone. I’ve been noticing others starting to use it on others issues too…as a black person I find that annoying. Let us just have that one thing/bandwagon for ourselves, please. As a people we need to come more together and “community up,” which we are now starting to do in greater numbers, especially in regards to supporting black businesses and seriously thinking about where we spend our cash. All other peoples have their businesses, community and loyalties….so I say again, leave us the BLM TOO for us solely to use…Give us that moment: It’s been a VERY LONG TIME COMING..

Peace & Love,

Light…